Monday, January 4, 2010
Between my first birthday without Matt in October, the one year anniversary of Matt's death in November, then Thanksgiving, then Christmas, then New Years, and all the other crap in between, it's been a rough freaking couple of months. It's bringing out a side of me that I don't like. The kind of side that despite all the love in my life, my beautiful children and the wonderful people around me, I'm still being ugly and hating the world. I'm hoping that once I get all this Christmas crap put away, I can get on with my life, and hopefully by the time October rolls around this year, I'll be better emotionally equipped to deal with it all again.